I have spent my fair share of time in the desert.
I played in the deserts of Saudi Arabia while the Iraqis were shooting scud missiles at me and the Americans were shooting patriot missiles at them. Both were causing the night to look like a ghost town. We knew the scuds would come after dark and be aimed at the city so many of the city dwellers were gone by dark. This was very exciting like riding a roller coaster that sometimes goes off the track and ...
The next time I spent time in the desert I was in Kuwait and guess what? You got it... The Iraqis were shooting missiles again. This time they did not even come close. They did mess up one of our Starbucks but only one.
Not only were the Iraqis shooting missiles but the locals were shooting Americans when we stopped at traffic lights so… We just stopped stopping at the lights. This was very exciting. If the missiles did not get us or the locals did not shoot us, we may kill ourselves because we did not stop at the red lights. It was very exciting.
The next three times were in Baghdad. Guess what? The Iraqis were shooting rockets at us. The first trip only had a little excitement but enough to keep us on our toes. The second trip had a little more excitement and one week after I came home a rocket blew up the truck I had been driving...
The last trip they got the closest yet. A rocket hit a little over a hundred feet from where I was. On my way home a mortar hit pretty close but... it missed.
I am in the desert again. This is not a literal desert. This time no one is shooting. The desert winds have dried my soul until I feel dry to the bone. I look at all I have believed all my life and wonder… WHY?
I do not doubt that there is a God. I know Yahweh is God and Jesus is His son.
I believe without a problem He was born of a virgin, lived a perfect life, died for my sins and rose on the third day.
I believe without a doubt He was my sin sacrifice to the Father and is at the right hand of the Father.
I believe without a doubt that I will go to Heaven because I have believed in Him and have a relationship with Him.
I believe and understand I am to love God with all my heart, soul, strength, and mind… and love my neighbor as myself.
I know I am to love others as Jesus loved me. He laid down His life for me...
Everything else is subject to question.
I have been a Christian since I was a child of five. Lived for the Lord, failed the Lord, lived for myself, and failed myself, found forgiveness from God and myself but…
That’s just it…
BUT…
There is nothing else.
BUT... God let's us know there is hope...
Just found this... 8 April 10
Deuteronomy 32:10-11
He found me in a desert land, and in the howling waste of the wilderness; he encircled me, he cared for me, he kept me as the apple of his eye. Like an eagle that stirs up its nest, that flutters over its young, spreading out its wings, catching them, bearing them on its pinions, the Lord alone carried me.“
So... I am not in the desert alone...
